Today, my class chairman asked whether I've received the class chalet slides.
I didnt so he sent me.
The dates were written on the first slide.
IT IS ON 10 - 12 JULY.
EXACTLY THE SAME AS MY CSCC CONNECTION CAMP.
THAT COMES TO MEAN THAT I'M GOING TO MISS ANOTHER CLASS BONDING EVENT.
WHAT THE!
Actually, I was quite irritated somehow.
I had mentioned that I cant make it on these days.
And HOW SILLY AM I TO THINK THAT THEY WILL CHANGE DATE.
Tho I knew that they will definitely fix it on these days when I was told before it's confirmed.
I just knew and had a strong sense of intuition abt this.
I knew that they will just fix it on these days when they said they'll be going with the majority.
I knew they are just too tired/lazy to find another date where everyone can make it again.
I knew it.
I just knew it.
From what I knew only, there is only one person in my class who cant make it for the wkend of the MST wk.
Maybe there are some other people who cant make it as well.
I DONT KNOW.
I think I WILL BE THE ONLY ONE WHO WILL NOT BE GOING TO THE CHALET.
Maybe I'm being too paranoid.
I DONT KNOW.
But I feel that I'm sort of being left out.
I feel that they might feel that I'm uhmm..
Gu pi [in chi].
I feel that they might think that I dont want to bond with them.
Which is totally not true.
This is year 1.
It's just like building a strong foundation.
The same thing to friendship.
Really feeling very agitated and irritated.
ARH~!
Heck care.
Really dont know what to say!
IS THERE REALLY NO OTHER DATE WHERE EVERYONE CAN MAKE IT?
FEEL LIKE SCOLDING VULGARITIES!
@$*$%#$#%@^%&
Feel like I'm being left out and sacrificed.
*ROARS*
AIYA!
I'm like talking without sequences.
Dont know how to express myself in words.
And this is a blog.
Anyone can read it.
Including my class people.
So I shall not talk much.
But I'll definitely going to remember this.